Struggling...

Struggling seems to be a topic I run into over and over again lately. It seems safe to say that everyone is struggling somehow whether it is due to the economy, family or personal heartbreak. Today I read 1Thesselonians 3:3 

...so that no one would be disturbed by these afflictions; for you yourselves know that we have been destined for this.

I was reading this as part of a bible study I'm doing and the topic this week is assurance in victory. This verse stood out to me as I was sitting in church listening to the pastor preach on faith. After reading this verse I think it's important to remember that as Christians we are destined for affliction. We are meant to live a life that imitates Christ and a life that each day brings us closer to God. To grow closer we must need him; we must need to deepen our faith. These struggles may be a part of our Christan life. It's difficult to imagine that a loving God would want us to struggle and would willingly allow hurt to be brought into our lives. In this I go back to finding comfort in not needing to understand God. Simply knowing he is God and he has a plan and he will see it through completion (Philippians 1:4-6) is my comfort.). That does mean constant reminders that Christ does have a plan and it is for good. I must also remind myself that my definition of good most likely doesn't line up with Gods. I base my thoughts and plans on wordly views. I try not to, but I'm a sinner and it's inevitable. It's difficult to want and desire and realize that my wants and desires may not be God's will or at least his will for me. It's hard to give control of my life over to him. It means I have to humble myself and I can see where pride constantly gets in the way of my letting God's will come to fruition in my life. 

Sniggity Snow Days Rock

Second Tuesday that we've had a Snow day.
I haven't had a full week of work since Christmas break.
It's been kinda nice.
Of course maybe since I haven't had a full week that would explain why I've had to go in 2 Saturday's in a row.
It all balances out.
My sister Janie is home visiting.
I've missed her.
When she turned 18 she decided to drop out of high school and move to Florida to live in a tent. Seriously.
She seems good though.
A little weird how someone can be such a big part of your life then gone and you adjust and then come back and you adjust to that.
It makes you realize that while there are people in your life you think you can't live without they don't really 'fuel' your life.
It just goes on.
I thought Christmas would be weird without her, but it wasn't that weird.
You just adjust.
Sorry-may not make sense.
Just some thoughts.
Thanks to my good friend Jo Ann I'm totally addicted to MySpace.
My sister and I have been trying to collect more friends than the other.
Are you supposed to feel bad if you deny people from being your friend?
There are some scary fellas out there.
Their pages say they are from my town so now I'm afraid I will see them and they will remember I said DENY to their friend request and they will hate me.
Don't need any freaky freaks on the MySpace.

To rent or to own that is the question

So I'm considering buying a small house.
That really scares me though.
See I get paid 4th year teachers sallary and I'm paying off my undergrad loans and I plan on starting grad school in the summer.
Grad school will set me back a cool $50,000.
I will be poorer than poor people.
So do I keep renting which is basically throwing money away or buy a house as an investment?
Seriously, is any house I can afford an investment?
If I continue to rent(a new apartment...a new year means a new dwelling) then I could look into buying next January/February and feel alot better about my finacial situation.
I will know exactly what my school costs will be and what not.
Okay, on another note, what do you think about this sketchiness...
My ex and I broke up a month and a half ago.
Last week this girl(who I know through him)calls me up and says...
"Hey, I heard you and Tom broke up."
me: "uh, yeah"
her: "So is that a good thing?"
Me: "uh, I guess so."
Okay...what did she think I was going to say, I don't know her that well did she want the break up story?
Her:" yeah, I had no idea until my friend (whose name I will not mention) called me up to tell me she was dating Tom ******."
Me: "Umm, okay...what?"
Seriously, what is going on? Why are you calling me?
What the hell.
Her: "So how long have you been broken up? "
Me: "Like a month or so"
Her: "Oh, well, they've only gone out like 3 times I guess they met on the internet."
Me: "nothing" b/c what the hell do I say...I never talk to this girl...let along about something so personal.
Her : "So, I was just telling (insert husbands name here) that we should do something with Tom and Wendy but since you guys broke up I thought I'd call you and see if you wanted to go out with us on Friday?"
Me: "um...Okay maybe..."
This is a true story. Very weird and true.
Oddly enough I did go out Friday and had a very good time.

shorty short

Yes, it did take a while quick review things that have happened...warning here some are not good but I'm just putting it out there so you ahve an idea...
I will just say I'm glad this is a new year. I'm ready for it.
(A side note...watching Grey's right now and George's dad has esophagus cancer. That is what my dad had. Take the tumor...he can make it!)
Okay...a student at my school died from choking, another of my previous students committed suicide, my sister dropped out of school and moved to Flordia when she turned 18, and Tom and I broke up.
Don't really know why I wrote that for anyone in the freaking world to read, but all of those things have had a big impact. Not necassarily negative either. Just big.
(OK...emotional...George's Dad's scar looked just like my Dad's...freaky weird...like having your life on tv).
Anyway.......
Here is the big news......
Are you ready......
I posted on 2peas!!!
username: wendysophia
Yep, just 3 posts, but they are there, oh, and I added a picture so you all know what I look like now.
A little reassuring to know I'm not some superfreak,huh?
Ofcourse, I guess I could still be a superfreak and that could be someone else, but it's me, I swear.
Just for good measure I'll add another picture...maybe if we can figure this out...

I'm back

Hey, it's been a long time, but I'm baaaack.
A lot of changes and it's a new year.
Not a lot of time to update, but soon, I promise...soon.
I'm sure there are just tons of people out there waiting for an update(ri-ight).

here's a little...

Don't know how to link, but got this off of Jess (CAjess14): Yesterday: Called Tom from school bought 'teachery' material I said I'd never buy wished it would stop raining didn't work out, again fell asleep before the end of LAO Talked to Jenny forever Today: Forgot to eat breakfast Mailed Tom a card Have a diagnostic Interview for Jenna and Dustin that's making me nervous Will stick to my diet for the 3rd day straight having a good hair day Said I'm never having kids Tomorrow: Want to have Taco Bell but stick to diet Will get folders and buelletin board done Will scrap Will remember breakfast Will stay positive Will pray PS My classroom is infested with grasshopper/crickets (what's the difference...I think crickets are black????????) Is that weird? They freak me out.

Lunatic

So, I found some small monograms at Walmart on clearance.
Only a $1.50.
What a bargain...so I bout 2 'w's and 1 's'.
Last night I was 'altering' them.
I wanted to bring in one 'w' and the 's' for my desks at my schools.
They turned out quite cute...or so I thought.
I was just sitting here looking at the 'w' and thinking "wow, you are so creative and did such a wonderful job on that 'w'. "
Then I noticed that I had covered it in paper with writing...
and the only word you can read, right in the middle of the 'w', on the hump if you will, is :
LUNATIC.
So, I'm a lunatic but have a very pretty 'w'.